My hips next to nonMHE hip xray (gotten off the web). The femoral necks of my hips are thicker and covered in bumps that catch on soft tissue, like tendons, nerves and veins.
I went to a local protest against some developers today but got the time wrong and showed up about 90 minutes early. I stood around waiting for as long as I could, but ended up going home before anyone else even showed up. I just couldn't take the pain anymore. I want to cry so badly. I am used to being able to do a lot more than I can now and it is frustrating. I feel so worthless and hopeless on days like today, the pain and frustration are overwhelming.
I am also having issues with my pain medication. I have a lot of stomach trouble and can't take many things. I am prescribed 20 mgs of methadone and 20 mgs of flexiril and 500 mg of naproxen. I also use medical cannabis but it is so expensive I can't afford enough for complete relief. This is the most effective combination that I have ever been on, but the methadone is causing chaos with the rest of my body. It is a bit of a trade off, either I have pain or severe nausea for 12-18 hours to relieve it.
Besides making me feel really sick to my stomach for the next 12+ hours, it also causes me to be more dehydrated. Somehow, at the same time it also increases fluid retention in my legs (which is a chronic issue too). I have gotten so dried out from the methadone several times that I was constipated for a week, but it was regularly 3-4 days. Recently I started taking it again and my doctor gave me some natural stool softeners. They seem to help a little but not enough. I also have to deal with a severely really dry mouth. It is harder to study or even hold a conversation because of the mental cloudiness it causes. They also make me itch all over and nod off to sleep any time I sit still for a few minutes. That is really embarrassing in class and dangerous on the bus!
I see Dr. Saam Morshed at the UCSF Orthopedic Institute on Tuesday to talk about an upcoming surgery. I am going to have to mention the hip issue to him. The surgery is to straighten my right femur just above the knee to attempt to help relieve some knee pain I am having. The issue with my hip might complicate things even more (seems to be the story of my life). I really hope it doesn't, I want something to be solvable for me at least once in a while.
I have decided that the knee and hip problems are more urgent than the right wrist issue, so I definitely want to have this wedge osteotomy surgery first. I am concerned about the straightening procedure though, it is much more complicated than the simple tumor removals I have had done in the past. I usually don't have much concern, the doctors have always done a good job and I healed very quickly. The last surgery was the most recent one though, and I healed much slower and the pain was greater than the surgeries I had years ago.
I am getting anxious to hear what the doctor(s) has to say on Tuesday. I want to get going with this already. I have been seeing doctors and getting passed around from one to the next for almost 2 years over this same issue now. Time to stop talking and start taking action.
